Feeling much better about things. It's rarely a nice feeling when a friend presents you with a "mirror" but sometimes necessary and only a good friend will do that... And honestly this reflection is something I need. It reminds me that what goes up can always come down but the opposite isn't true and to stay up requires constant energy.
It's definitely time to get my butt off the floor. *sigh!*
It's like the story of the little puffer train that my mum would tell me bout: in order to make it up the big hill he's gotta keep telling himself "I can do it, I can do it, I can do it..."

Thank you! to my great friends who believe in me :)

Alternating between confused and home-sick...

I feel like I've forgotten what feeling loved feels like.

"It's complicated" seems to be the main theme running in my life right now and I just want to retreat into my shell and stop thinking about everything.

How is it that my life has gotten to the stage where a hug is being drowned in the pool; my supervisor is my closest friend coz we share a love of frozen yogurt; I'm buying flat shoes; family time is the five mins between getting home and getting ready to sleep; a prayer is hoping I didnt just miss my bus and eye contact needs a mental reminer...?

Quality living --> ain't it grand! :-/

I just want you to know who I am...

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yeah you'd bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am


I just want you to know who I am...

Crystal Chalice

The sound of distant laughter
Once familiar - now unknown
Love that was had but since is lost
Feeling utterly alone

A voice whispers in the dark
Despair is pushed away
A silent prayer offered up
A life exchanged this day

A single flame in the dark
Come to life once more
The crystal chalice shatters -
Diamonds on the floor

Reflections in the broken glass
Like thoughts half remembered
No longer hiding from the past
And those who've been offended

A drop of blood from crystal shards
A vessel for the soul?
Now shattered, broken on the ground
Will never again be whole

Then swept away the shards are cleared
Reality is shifted
Not a cup bit cage of glass
The crystal prison lifted

A new vessel - Spirit forms
Making the soul it's home
Stronger than crystal - never to break
And never to be alone

~*~

By Rebecca Cheong
(written 2010)